I don't know it's because of the weather or other things that have been going on in my life lately,feeling very slothful these days.Not sleepy until 3 or 4 o'clock in the morning,walk around my apartment in pejama without doing anything productive,eat take out food,watch the same old series,I couldn't help wondering ,what the heck happened to me? There are numerous things that I should have been doing instead of all those meaningless craps,like,adding the data analysis to my business administration paper or working on my russian paper,or even catch up my reading.However,I don't feel like doing any of them.Obviously,I'm wasting my life and youth.
Last night or I should say this morning,lying in bed thinking about whom have I became all this years and I couldn't get a certain answer for myself,the conclusion was I envolved into someone that I hate so much. From other people's pespective,what I have in possesion now might be more than one could ever ask,studying in one of the top universities in China,going to DC in august,have been to many countries,been in and out of love,surrounded by friends so and so forth.But why don't I ever feel satisfied?Am I too greedy or things are really not as perfect as they seem?I think I just got my answer.
Last night or I should say this morning,lying in bed thinking about whom have I became all this years and I couldn't get a certain answer for myself,the conclusion was I envolved into someone that I hate so much. From other people's pespective,what I have in possesion now might be more than one could ever ask,studying in one of the top universities in China,going to DC in august,have been to many countries,been in and out of love,surrounded by friends so and so forth.But why don't I ever feel satisfied?Am I too greedy or things are really not as perfect as they seem?I think I just got my answer.
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